Note to the reader: if you are brave enough to visit
my town, vertigoville, pop.1, stroll down to the bottom of
this blog, it reads better in a chronological manner.
Caution: side effects may include nausea, dizziness,
and lost of innocence.
242 days of
insanity and the counting is not over yet.
The adjectives are clinging to their numbers,
and waiting for their turn to do qualify a cluster of monotonous and soulless
days.
242 days.
The shock is yesterday’s news, the menopausal
hours have given up all hope, and the hot flushes are the new reality.
It has been
8 months and 11 days that I have been living outside the norms, no rush hours,
no late subways and my week ends have long lost their fight for sanity.
242 coward
days.
Days hiding behind a thick layer of make up,
not even trying to fool anybody, the pimps have long moved on, the Johns lost
their desires and the red district is an island of family-friendly overpriced condos.
Reminiscence
is what’s left, chewing on an old water- soaked bread, my daily bread.
8 months
and 11 days, the gestation is over and the new born is a grey haired frail
character. Time has fast forwarded the aging process, the days have surrendered
to the years, and the new master took over.
Hail the new master.
Short-breathed
years, and the race is a quest for sanity.
Acceptance and
resignation are not synonymous; the line is fine but still. Acceptance is waking
up every morning and pretending that the hand you were dealt is not your fault,
nor is the dealer’s, and resignation is cursing the cards and leaving the game.
Acceptance is
a long and lonely path to what could be, acceptance is prying to a god that may
or may not care. Resignation is taking charge and deserting all the temples.